SUSter
My little sister’s back…
The energy of the new moon is now gone which means the Sanderson sister ritual is over. I can’t say if I passed or failed this test because I’m starting to think God is with the sh*ts too. For the longest I’ve been trying to convince myself that He wants me to respond in a level headed way but doing that, with the kind of energies that I’m dealing with, will never get me anywhere. I understand the saying “never argue with a fool because from a distance…no one can tell who’s who.”…but arguing is what brings out more of the truth. I find out a lot about people when I act “bipolar”. The reactions I get from people who claim to be something other than what I’m claiming they are is what helps me prove that my intuition is right. Is this a convenient way of excusing my inability to stop being toxic? I’m taking your question as disrespect and deciding not to answer it.
In the week and a half that my little sister has been off grid…I found out that she’s still been talking to my niece over the phone. Earlier today I decided this wasn’t good enough…so I text the last number that my little sister text me from. I asked whoever the phone belonged to if they could let my sister know that I was going to have my twin claim my niece on her taxes since it looks like she now has custody of her. The person agreed to relay the message and a few hours later I got an irate call from my little sister. She was…upset. The whole call was filled with her threatening to beat my a** and telling me how miserable she feels I am. I’m sure she said more things but I was too busy screaming over her…talking in my most condescending voice…explaining to her in detail how dumb she sounded. She was talking so much that I didn’t think she was listening to what I was saying but when she started stopping to reply back to me…I figured my approach was working.
I’m happy I didn’t talk from a place of anger, like I initially started to do until I felt how draining it was. The voice I was using was making me laugh on the inside and when the call ended I wasn’t as annoyed as I would’ve been if I had used my angry voice. After she hung up on me, she text me calling me a “miserable b*tch” (SS below) and I did what I do best…ran to the chat. I posted the screenshots on FB because showing that I’m not the only ‘crazy’ one in this ‘family’ is my goal. In my opinion…I now look like the sane one. And their crazed behavior keeps getting exposed because they refuse to stop triggering me. What’s crazy is…every time they trigger me now…I have a memory recall of more things that makes this look more and more like a set up to have me sacrifice myself. Today I posted my theory of them trying to get me to commit suicide and then I uploaded the screenshot receipts of my little brother asking me to increase the limits on the life insurance policy I bought from him. His request came a year after I started the policy and a year before their Christmas trigger that almost broke me. Life insurance policies have a 2 year suicide clause so…I pointed that out too.
Love,
Choosy
