HoliDazed
I crashed out…
I spoke about the triggers from my ‘family’ being the strongest around the holidays and nothing has changed. The trigger that is currently taking place is worse than any of the other ones I’ve experienced over the last 4 years and I literally feel like I’m losing my mind. My little sister text me Friday asking me to pick my niece up and then…she disappeared into thin air. It’s Sunday night and…I still have my niece. The only one in the chat who responded to me is my twin but that was only after she found out I wasn’t bluffing about texting her old contacts that I still have in my phone. She gave me her old phone like 5 years ago and I was still using it up until a couple weeks ago. I had no intention of getting another one but there’s a new iPhone coming out which means the old ones are glitching. Mine kept cutting off even when the battery was at 100% so I was forced to stop being cheap. I still have her contacts mixed in with mine because I never had a reason to pay attention to their presence. I knew I’d get a response if I started getting the attention of strangers so I wasn’t surprised that she came out of hiding when I started sending them screenshots of the chat.
I have no idea where my little sister is because the new storyline is she lost her phone. Her boyfriend text me from a random number on Friday asking me to come pick up the clothes my niece needed for a performance that was set to take place the next morning. I knew nothing about it. He couldn’t give me any details about the location she was supposed to perform at and when I told him my niece didn’t know where it was either…he stopped texting. I text that number today to see if the owner of the phone knew any information about my sister. The guy text me back and said he had seen both my little sister and her boyfriend after the boyfriend text me but that’s all he could tell me because he was no longer at the hotel they were staying at. Then he told me he was told to block my number by the boyfriend but he forgot to. I thanked him for the information and decided to take my niece to the park. After we left I decided to go to the hotel to see if I could find out the room # where they were staying at but the front desk couldn’t tell me anything.
I called the police to do a welfare check but the officer who showed up couldn’t help because the front desk said they didn’t have any record of my little sister staying there. He was the same cop that took my report over the phone earlier today when I tried to file a missing person’s report but after he found out the location of the Church’s my little sister was last seen at…he told me I’d have to call a completely different county and file the report all over again. I declined. I’ve been putting on a front with my niece all weekend but ended up having to tell her some of what was happening and my heart broke in a million pieces when she started crying. This triggered me to upload more screenshots to the Facebook account I created a few months ago that’s been collecting dust. I created it to look up another brother that I found out I have. I couldn’t find him so I forgot about the account. Today I remembered it and so far I’ve friend requested about 30 members of my mother’s side of the family, and some of their friends, after I made a few posts detailing what has been happening these last 4 years. I’ve had to go without my favorite ‘leafy greens’ all weekend and dealing with these emotions without a buffer is A LOT! I know I’m being purposely triggered and this…is why I now hate the holidays.
Love,
Choosy
Edit: My little sister text me at 9:57pm telling me to drop my niece off to her. I had my niece go to sleep at 9:30 and I already finished writing this post by the time she text me. We went back and forth for about 10 minutes but I’m only posting the text that speaks to her BM logic below. I hate this f*cking ‘family’.
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