CPS
**Please refer to my ‘WhewChile’ post from 8/13/24 for more context.**
**Trigger Warning: This post is draining.
My thoughts are triggered. Period.
Today was a day. It started off bad and got progressively worse as the hours passed. This morning, at 9:08am, I got a text from my little sister…asking me to take my niece to school. There was no way I would’ve been able to do what was being asked of me so I told her no. I went to the group chat, like I always do, to express my frustration because I felt like this was another intentional attempt to trigger my mania. (SSs below) Over the last few weeks I’ve been working on increasing my level of self-control. Since then, I’ve been given an insane amount of opportunities to lose it…with strangers and with ‘family’. And even though I’ve been given a few reasons to rant in the chat…I’ve tempered myself because…I’m finally maturing. There was a trigger that took place on Sunday that would’ve normally given me the green light to act out of…but well within the realm of…my character. But I didn’t take the bait. So I’m assuming they had to raise the bar because I haven’t given them any of my energy in a while.
Yesterday I was told that I didn’t have to pick my niece up and I automatically assumed she didn’t go to school. My sister said she did and even though I didn’t believe her…I let it go. I told myself I’d just ask my niece when I picked her up today but…she didn’t go to school. After telling my sister I couldn’t play drop off this morning, I felt a tightness in my chest for the next couple hours because I wasn’t sure if she was able to find a ride. I text her at 10:59am and asked if I needed to pick her up but my text didn’t show ‘delivered’. She text me back at 3:08pm…and said I didn’t have to get her. By that time I had already text my twin, privately, asking if our niece went to school and she replied “no”. I ended up sending my little sister the screen shots of the texts I sent in the group chat, instead of being violent with my words, because that made more sense. I expected for her to reply with something that would get under my skin but nothing in me expected for her to say she was going to unenroll my niece from school.
While waiting on a response from my twin, I had called the school to see if I could get any information. A couple days ago my sister gave me the login information for the school portal so I could take care of the fees. Logging in would’ve shown me her attendanceI but when I tried to today it kept saying I had the wrong password. So I called. When I spoke with the school they told me they couldn’t give me any information but the lady said, under her breath, that she didn’t show my niece’s name in the system. After leaving me on hold…the phone disconnected and when I called back no one answered. After my sisters ‘unenrolled’ comment…I wasn’t sure what to think. I sent my little sisters texts to the chat and kept my words short because I know they were expecting the opposite. After I sent my ‘told u so’ text…I sat on my bathroom floor for about 25 minutes, with my legs criss crossed, rocking back and forth. I couldn’t get myself to cry because there were too many thoughts racing through my mind at once. And the loudest one was how traumatizing this is about to be for my niece.
In this moment I have every intention of getting CPS involved because this is just one of several ongoing issues. The only reason I’m second guessing myself is because I don’t want to be another source of her childhood trauma. Calling CPS…again…would fall in that category. I don’t really feel like touching on the spell work part right now because I’m still wrapping my head around how I keep predicting their moves. Instead…I’m about to cloud my thoughts and watch something that makes me laugh.
Love,
Choosy
*Update: My twin just text 5 paragraphs in the chat that I refuse to read in full. What I got from the parts I skimmed over is…she’s now putting all the blame on my little sister…and none of it on the ‘mother’ that failed to raise her. No one can convince me they aren’t using witchcraft. And now that its backfiring…everyone is trying to distance themselves from each other. Even though they’ve been working as a team all these years. (SSs of my responses below).
**Updated Update: It’s 11:50pm and my twin and I just stopped texting in the chat 30 mins ago. My niece’s other aunt text me saying my twin kicked my little sister and niece out and that my ‘mother’ can’t do the drop offs until Friday. I hate this ‘family’.
***Below are my responses to my twin trying to separate herself. My twin’s name is not ‘Tia’. I was referencing the Sister Sister situation currently playing out in the media. I’ll talk about that in another post though.***
**Text from other aunt.**
