Twin
Caution: If this post reads as ‘crazy’ to you….please dismiss it as pSYchOsiS.
There’s a lot happening…while nothing is happening at the same time…
It doesn’t always feel right to write most of the thoughts I have inside of these posts because I know everything isn’t for everyone. No fake outrage please. But it’s 8’am, on my day off, and I’ve been awake since 6. Curled up in my sheets…dawndreaming about a past life love. I knew my emotions were going to be all over the place today so I had plans to go hiking and admire my Mother’s natural beauty…but the temperature outside called me to reschedule my admiration. So I’m laying in my feelings and trying to figure out how twin flame connections really work. I’m starting to realize that no matter how many lives twins separate in…God always brings them into a new world where they meet karmic versions of each other in everyone they date…until the vibration of both is high enough to meet again. This sounds like a crazed fairy tale? Ugh ugh…it’s a love story.
It’s been a couple times that I felt like I was in love with the idea of being in love with someone…but I can’t say that’s what it would’ve been if the physical connection wasn’t so strong. There’s some form of sorcery that happens during portal opening sessions…when wand bearers know how to make magic. I’ve been tricked into a trance-like state after these performances and it always left me feeling like I didn’t want to know what life was like without the performer. But once I went without the physical exchange of energy long enough…my desire to be around the auric energy of that person disappeared because they weren’t my real twin. Sexual intimacy creates soul ties…that blinds most people from the reality of who they are involved with. Which is why abstinence has been working for me because it heightens my ability to feel who I’m looking at.
It literally feels like there’s this one energy I can’t escape and…it’s back. I feel like God keeps allowing me to attract this energy because…I’m supposed to. Twin flames follow each other’s energy into every lifetime and there’s a magnetic attraction that eventually pulls them together…no matter what. Am I high? Ye…I’ve never been the kind of woman that entertains the idea of purposely sounding crazy…but I accept that a lot of the things I think…aren’t thoughts…thought by ‘normal’ people. This is honestly the first time one of my thoughts has had me feeling like I’m not resting all the way in reality. Which makes sense because twin flame connections aren’t of this world. I want to pretend like the pull I feel towards this energy is abnormal because that’s how a nORmAl person would define it. But the fact that I’m typing out thoughts that I hear in my head…onto a keyboard that is connected to a computer that operates like a mind…and has the ability to teleport ideas housed in my mind…to the squishy balls inside of the sockets of people I’ve never and probably will never meet in real life…for them to mentally ingest and form their own thoughts about…lets me know that nothing in this world is normal. So right now…I don’t feel like pretending I am.
Love,
Choosy
