GoldenTicket

I was in my feelings and felt like being judgmental…

Women who deal with a man when they know he has a spouse…are a different breed. Through my years of dating…I’ve met some men who aren’t single…but move like they are…so I can understand how some get tricked. The worst memory I have of this is walking into a store a while back and seeing a man slip off his ring…before walking over to talk to me. Astronomical audacity. At this point in my life…I realize that two types of women attract this energy the most. Those who have been cheated on and allow that hurt to turn them into the same kind of woman she was cheated on with. And those who have been cheated on and work to raise their vibration high enough to avoid repeating the cycle. I know how it feels to be that girl that thinks she’s giving her commitment to someone who deserves it…only to find out I was better off alone. So being the reason another woman feels that would have God and all my Ancestors looking at me sideways..because they’re the ones that put my heart back together after my own experience(s) with the hide and go get-her’s.

Earlier today my mind went to a man that gave me the oPpoRTuniTY to ‘play my position’. (SS below) I met him while I was dating my first ex and he made it known that he was interested. The way we knew each other required me to see him every other week but I never acted on his advances until I left my ex…for the 15th…or 34th time. When I did…he took me out on a date for my birthday. At the time…he was a lot of what I was looking for but I had a soul tie with my ex that kept me tethered to the idea that he would change. So when my ex called a few days after the date…I sent a text letting the other guy know I had to cut communication. Some years passed before we spoke again and when we did…he tried his best to pretend like he was single. I had moved states by the time we reconnected so we talked on FT a lot. During the weeks that we were talking my intuition kept telling me to ask him about his relationship status. After I found out about a child he had…that was a few months older than a year…I knew I didn’t have a choice but to ask a question that I didn’t want the answer to.

We were on FT when I finally decided to ask him if he was still with his BM and when I did…he told me he had to call me right back. But when he did…it was an audio call. And I’m glad he took that route because my eyes started watering when he told me that they were together. What’s crazy is I never took him as the type of man to move like that but…he never traveled through the portal so I’m sure he was trying to see something before saying something. I said my goodbyes and we got off the phone but he text a couple hours later trying to see if I was bluffing. So I told him to save his girl’s picture as my contact in his phone. I wanted him to be reminded of the commitment that this woman believed they had whenever he was tempted to call me. I haven’t talked to him since. I never want to understand how it’s possible for a man to have the full commitment of a woman that rides for him unconditionally, but still have a desire to hitchhike with randoms. This is exactly why I gave my exes hell because I wanted to make cheating the most uncomfortable thing they could do. Now…I’m just trying to spot the red flags before wasting the kind of energy it takes to pretend I wasn’t the one that slashed all the tires.

Love,

Choosy