SoUlstice

I promise I’m trying to change…it’s just being postponed for a few more days…

I had every intention of letting my last post…be my last post…for a while. Why would I stop if this is what I feel like God told me to do? Because it’s looking like the time is coming when I’ll have to speak on what I don’t feel like speaking on…pertaining to what real spell work looks like.——Why? Cause these mEn run their mouths like little school girls.—-Am I projecting because they’re pulling a me…on me? “Go away from me with this.” Running away from my reality has always been my favorite form of exercise because I don’t like feeling what I don’t have to feel. But today I was reminded that running away from this project will just prevent me from showing what root work really looks like…so I’m back. Tomorrow (12/21) is the Winter Solstice and to many it’s just another day…but for those who are spiritually aware…this is a day when energetic portals are all the way open. So if you play in magic…it’s the perfect time to syphon energy from whatever source you feed off of. My ‘family’ hasn’t had a good meal off me since I aired them out on FB but today that changed after I got a text from my twin telling me my little sister decided to move 4 hours away. (SSs below) If you’ve been reading my posts you know the ‘move out of state’ trigger has been used a few times…but this time they found a new angle.

From what was told to me…my little sister plans to move 4 hours away…and has already left…without her child. Which means I was signed up to keep my niece overnight…with no notice. None of them can convince me that this isn’t a ritual that they’re all participating in…even though my twin almost had me believing it was. She sent me a million screenshots of her conversation with my little sister to prove she’s just as caught off guard as I am…but after I realized that no one who is working in a group to do magic on someone…would ever outwardly admit, to that person, that this is what they’re doing…I went with my first mind. We spent all day going back and forth about the new role I was being signed up for because we don’t know when my little sister is coming back. And when I gave pushback…I was told that I need to put my niece first. What’s crazy is the conversation was had…solely off of the assumption that my little sister was moving…and not on the strength that she actually is. Same as the last ritual. Most of the exchange took place after I picked my niece up from school which had my energy completely thrown off because I didn’t have a chance to process how I was feeling. After making that point to my twin…she stopped texting me but she must’ve tagged my little sister in because she called me 15 minutes later…to tALk tO hEr cHiLD.

I refused to allow my little sister to speak to my niece because I don’t reward poor parenting. We went back and forth a little via text and by the end of it the same person forcing me to parent her child…threatened to call the police and report me as a kidnapper. “This sh*t’s hilarious.” There were a few moments when I had to walk my niece through the natural emotions that come up from situations like this. But what I didn’t expect was having a mini breakdown in front of her while explaining that I’m trying to keep my composure because there are a lot of people who have all decided to play with my mind…at the same time. We came back to my place and played our usual make believe games and now she’s sleeping peacefully next to me. I have no idea what tomorrow holds but I’m too busy being excited about us going ice skating for the first time, to be bothered. It’s crazy that all this happened the day after I wrote my post on letting everything go…which adds to my belief that these hoes can sense when I’m inching up on happiness. Folding is no longer an option so...I took the opportunity to release this pent up frustration. Now...I'm “otay”.

Love,

Choosy