GhostWriDer

I thought gossiping was for the gworls…

I’m offensive…and it looks like my offense…offended somebody. The messages I’m being guided to convey in this project challenges current societal norms. And those who benefit from keeping these toxic traditions in place…are a little sassier than usual. I was told a while ago that the ones who are ‘chosen’ to speak the kind of truth that has the ability to raise the consciousness of a whole collective…are usually targeted until they either go crazy…and/or remove themselves from this realm. I’ve spoken on a lot of what I’ve experienced in my life that was meant to take me down both of those roads but the biggest source of my trauma hasn’t fully been addressed…on purpose. So I force other people to face their truth while I hide from mine? Please stop gaslighting me. Truthfully speaking…I haven’t processed my shortcomings enough to express it on here…so I focus on everyone else’s. But because I haven’t healed the source of my pain…the raw emotions I still have…keeps being used in humiliation rituals.

I’m starting to notice the rituals performed on me always leave me feeling an immense amount of shame. After asking God for a better understanding of why this is…I was guided to look up an Emotional Vibration Frequency Chart that lists human emotion and ranks them in order from highest to lowest frequency. Shame…is at the bottom of the list. When our energy is in lower frequencies….it creates access portals for succubus energies to come in and feed. Humiliation rituals are used so often because when someone is embarrassed…the first emotion they feel is shame. Some people willingly undergo rich-tuals to obtain a certain amount of wealth and/or social status. Which is why we see ‘straight’ men pictured in compromising positions with ‘zigzagged’ men. And it’s also why we see these same men convince the women they date to augment their bodies…in order to keep their hIGh vALueD attention...just to be BM’d…and overlooked for someone living in her natural habitat. These are examples of choosing a rich-tual vs being ritualed. Targeted individuals aren’t given a choice and we rarely benefit from the humiliation that’s birthed.

The amount of shame I’ve experienced throughout my life, by way of flaws constantly being reinforced by receipted rituals on my anxiety, is more than most people could cope with. Before now, when people would go out of their way to try and embarrass me…I’d curl up in an energetic fetal position and wait for the feeding frenzy on my energy to be over because I was too overcome with shame. Now…I realize that there will never be a time when there isn’t an attempt to pull from my energy because…it’s pressure. Sacrificing me obviously isn’t an option…so the feeders are out. These are the individuals who sold their souls to the highest bidder…and make up for the void they now feel by seeking out opportunities to diminish the value of those who refuse to sell theirs. I’m finally learning to focus more on the spiritual benefits I get from ‘carrying my cross’ though. Because the payout is my ability to alchemize what’s meant to break my soul…into lessons about why it’s so important to label yours as priceless. All that to say…light workers have the sense God gave us to know that the only thing we take when we leave this world is all of our soul…and none of the fORtuNe received from bartering ours and/or others. Silly whabbit.

Love,

Choosy